The One Thing to Remember When Someone says Sin is the Cause of your Disease

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Chronic disease hurts in many ways, which makes it harder to grasp

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Chronic Disease hurts, in many ways!!

It’s not how we were knocked down. It’s how often, how many times we get up. Still praising God. The blind man’s story yes, and Job’s.

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Zebras in a world of horses often blow up!

One Mountain at a Time

You have a disease. It cripples your mornings, costs your afternoons, and keeps you up at night. You take whatever medicine the doctor tells you to take, get sick of it, try a homeopathic way, can’t do it alone, go back to your medicine, change doctors, try to find a happy medium. Start all over again.

You’re sick.

You’re tired.

You’re sick and tired of what people tell you about why you’re sick when every part of your body that’s hurting feels like it has its own heartbeat.

Then someone tells you you’re sick because of the sin in your life. You’ve heard the speeches about how you should eat better and that you did this to yourself, but you haven’t heard this before.

Please remember this one thing dear friend:

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A Real Who done it?

Every time I turn around it seems people are looking for someone to blame for this Covid 19 scare. An upheaval and nightmare we find ourselves living in. The media and many liberal politicians as well as their constituents are salivating all over themselves in the push to blame our President. As if any one man could have come up with such an action let alone a President about to run for a new election. The man who implemented and over saw the greatest economy in this nations history. The thought of his detractors or enemies being in cahoots with China, Iran, Soros, the U.N. formulating this nightmarish concept makes much more sense.

However there is One who ultimately is liable and has a history of causing these types of shocking shakings of the world. One who is excellent at getting the attention of His creation. All throughout history our Lord has used these means to get our attention, also to change the course we were walking. The flood was more than a shaking up, however Our Father has said He would not do that exactly again. 9/11 I believe was a shaking. Remember Pharaoh way way back in the day? A leader whose bad behavior towards Gods beloved had gotten so out of hand that God brought in Moses to assist in His next shaking. Moses was quite an unlikely choice to give lectures to the head of Egypt, especially as Moses was a plain spoken man who stuttered. But that’s Our Lord for ya. I would bet that the plagues that God sent got every Egyptians attention, and the locusts, etc. They I imagine tried to exolain a lot of this away but the plague, they could not. The deaths of the first born male child of all the citizens,( except those that believed in Yahweh., The believers warned ahead of time painted lambs blood on their doorways, to show in plain site, or if you will, speak through this action of faith in God to all of Egypt). So when the angel of death passed over all of Egypt their house and family would be spared. I think the families who lost their precious sons gave attention to this shaking and experienced the possibility of a new awakening. Finally. God got all of their attention. Sure some just hardened their hearts all the more and would not believe. But I bet many did and when Gods people left Egypt finally, many new believers went with them.

Mark R. Rushdoony the President of Calchedon. An educational and publishing foundation, and a Christian worldview organization. Mr. Rushdoony also a Pastor, author, teacher and publisher, as well was his father, has made an excellent point that The Christian Church needs to realize. What he would like to remind us of is how Christians should understand that major upheavals, and the economic impact of the response is, in and of itself, not anything new. It is a shaking of God.

This plague is a major disruption that will have long-term effects. Whether the response in the country, argued over and by the media or any of the states like Illinois, Wisconsin, New York, California or yours is inappropriate , out of proportion. They should really not be of concern now. This virus will pass, and regardless of the final statistics that will eventually be tallied, the political response has produced a tremendous upheaval that will have a massive impact economically and, likely, politically. It is our general perspective of such upheavals that I want to bring into the light.

Chalcedon and many great companies, charities, non-profits and businesses , even many of our nations newer benefits of its citizens were born in a time of great upheaval and social change. When Barry Goldwater decided to run for President of the United States against John F. Kennedy as a senator for Arizona, (a time I remember but did not at that time yet understand). Goldwater projected that he could carry the West, the South (then still controlled by conservative Democrats, (yes in the past there were some), and the Midwest heartland. Which restricted Kennedy to the electoral votes of New England. It made perfect sense, and Kennedy was an ineffective (though well-liked) President, with strong opposition from his own party that had stalled his agenda in Congress.

All that changed when Kennedy was assassinated a year before the election. That was an upheaval, a shaking with significant political and even legal ramifications. Lyndon B. Johnson, a Texan, invoked the memory of the fallen president and pushed his agenda through Congress and added his own “Great Society” programs, including his “War on Poverty.” All a type of socialistic practices injected for the first time into our democracy. The political scenery changed in a day and Goldwater lost the presidential election of 1964 in a Democratic landslide. Our Potus today is continually under attack, part of which I believe are demonic attacks in nature. God is known to make shake ups that set Satan and his demons behind in their quest to wreak havoc and make straight the path to hell for the unbelievers. .

Other upheavals followed. The Civil Rights movement saw the rapid rise of Federal intervention and the repudiation of state’s rights as a tool of racism. Not all went well for the Democrats, however, as opposition to the Vietnam War became intense. Marxist revolutionaries on the one hand and hippies on the other repudiated much of American life and culture . Los Angeles was the city rocked by the first race riot in a generation.Students went crazy, marchers, protesters in every major city. Bombings were becoming commonplace. That certainly caused a national upheaval. The “sexual revolution” was evidence that the change in American life was far more than superficial; it was rooted in a prior religious shift. Humanism. Agnosticism. Abortion was introduced into our national psyche along with many promises to keep it to a minimum. They lied. Now euthanasia and infanticide are becoming more acceptable. Many countries already practice these abominations. Francis Shaeffers beloved Sweden among them.

In 1965, just nine months after Goldwater’s defeat. Many conservatives were composed of disillusioned and distressed believers; due to the revolutionary changes taking place. My family and many friends, businesses even some politicians, churches tried to shift listeners from the political perspective of these atrocities to a Christian one and emphasized the need for a change based on a self-consciously Biblical view of law and culture. The term “Christian Reconstruction” became popular to describe a process far more fundamental than a political election cycle. Francis Shaeffer was on the front lines writing and lecturing on Christian education as an essential component of this long-term, future-oriented worldview.

The change and upheavals have continued. The LGBT culture was predicted by the rise in homosexual influence and increased hostility to Christian faith. At times the upheavals have seemed hopeful, such as the fall of the Iron Curtain, then the Soviet Union, and the increase of free markets in China, yet each of these changes brought more uncertainty and a new set of dangers to light. Upheaval brings change, and because we cannot see the future, the uncertainty causes us a great deal of anxiety.

As Christians we repeat the phrase “trust in God,” but we often think of faith in a way that cannot alleviate anxiety. If faith is merely a refuge from the world in the expectation of a better world in heaven, then we are divorcing our world from any real hope, we are conceding to despair and defeat. If, however, faith in God is an assumption that unfolding events are in His Providential governance than we can believe that all things are now working together for good (Rom. 8:28) and, as those who “love God” we live in terms of this assumption. Our trust in God is our own faith that God is still on His throne, that nothing is spiraling out of control.

Our worldview controls our understanding of all human history. We put events, even the frightening upheavals of life, into the big picture of God’s working. Because this perspective, this worldview forces us to put the events of our times and our own life and work within the context of God’s sovereignty, so I prefer the term world and life view. This includes our health and potential threats to it, the economic and political forces that are beyond our control, or the natural disaster, social, or cultural forces that swirl around us.

You may be an expert in one or more of the various crises that are now brewing. I am not; I have no crystal ball as to how they will play out or when. I do know the direction of history however. I also do know the Lord and Judge of history. Through times like these it is our responsibility to reveal Him to the fearful through His Word and our faith . Also by Our personal stories.

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Psalm 28.

God brings disruptions into history when man least expects them, and we are wrong if we see such changes as in any way setting the advance of His Kingdom back (Is. 9:7; Lk. 1:33). Scripture uses an apt term for the periodic overturnings of the status quo—the “day of the Lord.” This term refers to those times when God caused a sudden correction to history, interrupting the plans of men in something of a divine reset. The Flood, the Exodus, the fall of Jerusalem, then Babylon were all major and unexpected corrections of God. The resurrection of Jesus Christ was obviously a day of the Lord as well. The plans of evil men were defeated and history proceeded in terms of God’s covenant salvation.

There is not a single “day of the Lord” but many. The writer of Hebrews compared the work of God in history to the shaking of Mount Sinai when the law was being given to Moses. The people feared the shaking. Moses feared it also. It was a warning meant to elicit fear. The present shakings of God, however, should not cause believers fear because we are to understand their purpose is the furtherance of the Kingdom of God and His Christ.

Yet once more I shake not the earth only, but also heaven.

And this word, Yet once more, signifies the removing of those things that are shaken, as of things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken will remain. (Heb. 12:26b-27)

Because we are His, we have an eternal security. We will remain and be part of his eternal kingdom. The conclusion of that passage is to act in terms of this understanding of the shake-ups of history and to “serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear: For our God is a consuming fire” (vs 28b-29). Rather than fear the shakings of God we must see them as His movements in history. In the vicissitudes of change we do the work of servants, constant in season and out, even while the Master is away.

Mr.Rushdooney’s father also a strong believer repeatedly said we were at the end of an age. The institutions of humanism are failing at every turn and we lurch from one crisis to another. The one we now face will pass. If it represents a change let us see it as a shaking of God so that the “things which cannot be shaken will remain.”

There will be more upheavals ahead. These are terrible times to be a pessimist and wonderful times to have faith in the power of the Holy Spirit to advance the Kingdom of God amid the divine shaking of evil men.

Evil men do not control history, so they are periodically shaken out. These shakings are to be seen in a faith that all things are purposeful in history. We need not understand how things work for good, but we are to believe they do. Personally I know they do, however it is usually through hindsight that we learn how they worked for good.

When Paul said the just, or righteous, man should live by faith (Rom. 1:17; Gal. 3:11; see also Heb. 10:38) he was quoting Habakkuk 2:4 which adds a pronoun that makes the instruction a little clearer: “The just shall live by his faith” (2:4), that is, in terms of it, as his world and life view, as his perspective on all of life.

Let us, then, live in terms of faith in God and in His Providential rule through Our Lord Jesus Christ. The shakings of God are not to be feared; they are our call to serve God with reverence and fear. It is not the Kingdom of God that is in danger, but that of all those who would supplant it.

So Damn Tired!

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Not kidding, some days are this bad…..

The SATED test: a self-report questionnaire developed by sleep researchers to determine sleep fulfillment

A self-report questionnaire developed by sleep researchers to determine sleep fulfillment

Chronic Diseases are famous for fatigue! Fatigue is not a strong enough word to describe the exhausted weakness that over takes the body. Keeping our eyes open let alone concentrating on anything is impossible. Even our most loved activities can not do it. When the chronically ill body says sleep. sleep it is..

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When getting out of bed means moving to the couch….

Insufficient sleep is now one of the most significant lifestyle factors influencing whether you will develop Alzheimer’s disease. During sleep, a remarkable sewage system in the brain, called the lymphatic system, kicks into high gear. As you enter deep sleep, this sanitation system cleanses the brain of a sticky, toxic protein linked to Alzheimer’s, known as beta amyloid. Without sufficient sleep, you fail to get that power cleanse. With each passing night of insufficient sleep that Alzheimer’s disease risk escalates, like compounding interest on a loan.

Parenthetically, and unscientifically, I have always found it curious that Margaret Thatcher and Ronald Reagan – two leaders who were very vocal, if not proud, about sleeping only four to five hours a night – both went on to develop the ruthless disease of Alzheimer’s. The current US president, Donald Trump – also a vociferous proclaimer of sleeping just a few hours each night – may want to take note.

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Insurance companies know the damage sleep deprivation can cause, not only on our bodies but the economy.

And Then There Are the Doctors in Training!

All individuals on the healthcare team must take this problem seriously, since Medical Errors are the third leading cause of death in the country. All providers must know the patient safety threat is great when the team is likely functioning on very subpar levels due to sleep deprivation. Try sleeping in a hospital.? It is a cliche often said hospitals are not for sleeping…….Well maybe they should be!

Perhaps you have also noticed a desire to eat more when you’re tired? This is no coincidence. Too little sleep swells concentrations of a hormone that makes you feel hungry while suppressing a companion hormone that otherwise signals food satisfaction. Despite being full, you will still want to eat more. It’s a recipe linked to weight gain in sleep-deficient adults and children alike.

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Worse, should you try to diet but don’t get enough sleep while doing so, it is futile, since up to 70% of the weight you lose will come from lean body mass, not fat. Turn these facts around and you realize that plentiful sleep is powerful tool for controlling your appetite, your weight and keeping your body trim. Sleep the pounds off no one said ever, but I am willing to try.

Sleep is perhaps the greatest treatment we have. How many times have we heard of comatose patients, zzzzzing off for months, even years, then wake up. New and improved.

Actually fatigue and not just the everyday midafternoon crash is common. A good strong cup of coffee or tea is where my mind wanders too during those times. However the fatigue that comes with chronic diseases is so very much more profound that descriptions can’t depict it accurately. No caffeine actually helps. Your body wants to crash, so lay down, if even for just 20 min and be sure your doctor hears about it. Many serious illnesses have extreme fatigue as an early symptom. A blood sample may reveal the cause. IE: Anemia? Encephalitis? Sjogrens, MS, Heart Disease and even some Cancers.

A chemical imbalance is easy to treat with supplements and can have you up and at ’em in no time. A chronic health condition is a different matter altogether. Have you heard of spoonies? We are a large group of people throughout the world that gauge our energy levels, fatigue actually by the number of spoons spent in a days time. We all start out with the same number. Every activity from waking, dressing, stressing, shopping, working, spends spoons. By late morning many times I am already out of spoons. Other Chronic disease sufferers may be able to get through dinner with their number of spoons. When our spoons are depleting a significant nap is in order to regain enough spoons to say hi to the family and go back to bed. Did you know sleeping burns up spoons? Imagine that. …

Remember sleep is a good thing, use it.

The Moon Tells the Sky, The Sky tells the Sea,

The Sea tells the Tide,

And the Tide Tells Me.

Sleep tight friends…..!

SS

Color and the Brain

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In the category of Medical Advocacy one particular facet of benefiting patients and staff that is hardly ever mentioned, is the use of color. It’s also home for my love of Decor and Design which helped support my family for decades. I am semi retired. Some things you just can not quit.

  • Color is well known to enhance learning, memory, performance, rest, over and under stimulation, relaxation and energy usage. Color is part of the electromagnetic spectrum, and in its purest form is energy. Did you know that pure color has its singular function in the Electromagnetic Spectrum? Each Color even has its own wave lengths? Energy that goes to the brain….. What if we told you that colors can affect neurological pathways in the brain? And that they can create a biochemical response?
  • Personally I believe it’s clear that color has been overlooked for far too long. Dr. Robert Gerard recognizes this and has pioneered research, which suggests that every color has a specific wavelength, and each of these affect our body and brain in a different way. Our children, the ill, our businesses, class rooms, hospitals, have overlooked this strong component in everyday life.

How Do Colors Influence Learning?

Learning is a difficult field to understand, and there’s so much research out there discussing these issues that it’s hard to know where to begin. What’s pretty obvious though is that color plays a key role in creating an environment that fosters learning and behavior. So is spatial planning, but we will get into that in another blog. Soon.

So let’s talk about color – What colors help learning? Mood? What colors might be annoying or distracting to students? And how can we mitigate some risk taking? For instance, we would never want to place someone who becomes easily bored, or one who has a hard time with concentration, or focus in a red environment. They would not relax and would likely devolve even more. Nor should someone easily stimulated, or has ADHD in an all orange or red room. Neither of these groups should be placed in the same color space for any significant period. Chaos could ensue and learning curtailed or at the very least subdued.. t


Some people are of the mind set that “Colors aren’t important.”Oh yeah – then how do you explain traffic lights, warning signs, and rainbows? Color is important.

Using the right color, and the correct selection and placement can seriously affect feelings, attention, and behavior when learning and in living. It’s time that we leveraged that to our advantage. Even research with Alzheimer’s patients has shown that color cues improve memory and that students recall images in color more easily than images in black and white – amazing, right?

Now listen, we’re not expecting you to be the next Picasso– but a fundamental understanding of which colors work will benefit you to no end. So that’s what I would like to do now. We’ll be going through a few colors and have a look at what they could mean to you and your family or business needs– and the biological response they can elicit. Realizing of course, that this isn’t a definitive science. And there are a myriad of colors. For the sake of space we will only look at a humble few of today’s most popular.

There are unique elements to color choice. We all have our favorites or colors we can’t stand. (Mine is beige, ugh) It might even be that you’re scared of blue because you’re scared of water? Or prefer purples because it makes you feel regal? However, what we’re going for here is a broad-strokes approach that helps us appeal to the most people with the right colors for a variety of projects. Obviously, in a one on one design consultation personal preferences and needs would be pulled out and considered. For instance your son or daughter might be visual learners? (Like me).

1) Green: Concentration

You probably know this already, since we just talked about it a bit, and just by taking a look at a forest or a field. Low wavelength colors promote restfulness and calm, and they improve efficiency and focus.

So that’s why green is an excellent color for improving concentration. Apart from being one of the easiest colors on the eyes, it reminds us of nature. That’s why TV stars stay in the ‘green room’. It’s a relaxing space. A patient with serious hypertension a green environment could be very beneficial.

Green is a good color for keeping long-term concentration and clarity, making it a good choice for an office – as opposed to red, which is seen as stimulating and exciting. Maybe it helps in the short term, but stimulation has to tail off sometimes.

Interestingly enough, there’s some real scientific evidence for this. Some studies have shown that people who work in green offices have higher rates of job satisfaction, and consumers have been shown to spend more time shopping in stores that are painted green . Did you notice how many restaurants have green in the decor? It stimulates the appetite and relaxes you into staying for awhile. Maybe order that last piece of pecan pie. Which reminds us that in our homes and we are dieting we need to repaint the green kitchen, to blue.

Another study, led by Dr. Kate Lee, examined 150 university students. She gave the group a boring, monotonous task that dragged their attention span to a breaking point, pressing a series of numbers over and over as they read off a computer screen. The students were told not to press keys when the number three appeared on the screen. Then break time came, and in a 40-second window half of the group viewed a green roof, while the others looked out onto a bare concrete roof. Amazingly, the research showed that students who looked at the green view made fewer errors and had overall better concentration.

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Dr. Lee hypothesizes that the green roof provided a ‘restorative experience’ which helped boost the mental resources of the students involved in the study. If true, that’s a major consideration. Lee believes that just a moment of looking at a green space could provide a moment of revitalization for workers who were struggling to concentrate. This brings up the day dreamers in our midst, always staring out the window to the outside, Lawns, trees etc. Helps some of us actually tolerate an environment were in better, but they do not know why. Now we do.

2) Orange: Mood Lifter

Think about the orange sun setting over the horizon. Nice, right? It’s true, orange can be a welcoming and mood-lifting color for all of us, which in turn promotes comfort and improves neural functioning.

Some theorists argue that an environment rich in the color orange increases the oxygen supply to the brain, stimulating mental activity while simultaneously loosening peoples’ inhibitions. An increased oxygen supply also leads to feeling invigorated and getting ready to ‘get things done.’ Some have even suggested that test centers be painted orange to stimulate exam-takers.

But this comes at a cost – avoid bolder orange colors if your children are young and naturally energetic. Or a teenager with hormones in over drive? This isn’t a good color for those prone to over stimulation ,for instance if your group of students have attention deficit hyperactive disorder or another health concern which leads to easy distraction you might want a soft green classroom with a little orange scattered in art work, or floor tiles. The tone of both those colors are vital also.

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That’s not it on the science for orange, though – many studies have found that when colors are used to emphasize a feature or piece of content on the screen, childrens attention levels increase. Of course, the best colors for this are warm colors, like orange. So we can say that when you’re looking to highlight certain facts or important information, orange can be a better choice than the traditional red. But, because of its energy and brightness, orange can be an overwhelming choice. Orange is, in other words, best in small doses. Remember that green restaurant with the pecan pie? It probably has orange accents here and there, or in a pattern on the chair covers, window apparel, etc.

The secrets of orange were known in ancient China too – in Feng Shui, orange is seen as a “yang” color which stimulates focus and promotes organization . Of course, we need to remember that brightness and saturation also come into it, (also known as tone and tint) and too bright a color will probably give you a headache! Looking to the experts, color psychologist Angela Wright states that bright orange hues stimulate while low saturation is more soothing. So for boosting energy, go bold, and for relaxing, go mellow. Makes sense, huh?

So to close out orange as a color, it can be used to highlight key facts and figures, communicate energy, life, and activity. Orange is a vibrant color that demands attention, giving it an edge as a choice for highlighting. But again, use with caution! The same for yellow.

Blue: Productivity 

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Some research suggests that people with highly intellectual work, which requires a high cognitive load, for instance, programmers or academics, are more productive in a blue environment. That said, though; we can’t keep life too monochromatic – it should be balanced with warmer colors. These can be found by using the opposite side of the color wheel. Certain blues illicit sleep, others require a fireplace to be lit.

Blue is best used for learning situations which are challenging. Blue paper, blue ink, or blue highlighting can be used to help improve reading comprehension too. Blue in general it seems is a relaxing and calming color, but lighter shades will seem more ‘friendly’ while darker ones seem a little more somber.

Back to the experts, many color psychologists recommend using blue colors, but adding a bit of extra kick with orange, especially for highlighting information (like we mentioned earlier!).

So in summary, blue is great for promoting high levels of thought, but too much can create a sense of detachment and coldness.


Color me convinced

Hopefully, by now you’re having a dramatic rethink of the color of your businesses, your house, and maybe even your car. That’s great – Remember, color is fundamental to the human experience. It’s a huge part of our lives and our perceptions, and we should leverage that in our day to day living. Meanwhile …….If you would like more info…you can find me right here. Follow me , more is to pop out soon


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WOE TO US!

Woe to us who sojourn where we should not, that we dwell among the people of Molech and Baal, the tents of Kedar.The land of Meshech. Today we have to live in the center of just as an ungodly world as it was back in Christs Day, and it will not be of any help for us to cry, “woe is me!”

Jesus did not pray for us to be taken out of the world, so we should not want what He doesn’t want for us. He will meet us in His strength at our point of need and will be glorified. We should not run but stand firm where God has placed us. Others, friend and foe are watching as we handle what comes against us. Our consistency is necessary in our conduct so as not to cast aspersions upon our Lord. As Daniel, we must compel men to notice our goodness not more sin. Dan.6:5 That the world can find no need for complaint against us.

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There are good, bad and ugly behaving people in this world.

There are also good, bad and ugly places to live in this world. We should be found doing good, being useful to God wherever we live. We must exhort all the more if where we are found living is in a bad or ugly place, or job, or home. The worse the people are among you the more they need you to lovingly exhort. Your exertions: if they are crooked, all the more we need to set them straight: and if they are perverse they need us to turn their proud hearts to the truth. Where is the best place for a doctor? Where the sick are. A soldier needs to be in the battle to win his honor.

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Where temptations have come and in cases overwhelmed a loved one, friends, or even family, we must stay the course. Entreat strong men or women in the faith to come up alongside the wandering prideful soul, encouraging, rebuking, loving them back unto the way. In Christs love. In the faith. Entreating them to leave the false idols, the false promises of Baal. The destruction of life as in Molech.

Many times the idol being worshiped is our selfish pride or ego. It can also be worldly recognition or popularity . Often times it is money or a job that we put before our Lord.For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the boastful pride of life, is NOT from the Father, but is from the world.1Jn 2;16. In those cases we must remind them or ourselves, ‘what good is it if we gain this but lose our soul’?

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JER 17:9 “The heart is more deceitful than all else And is desperately wicked, who can understand it?”

Let us behave properly as in the day, Not in carousing and drunkenness not in sexual promiscuity and sensuality, not in strife and jealousy. But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh in regard to lusts.

Matt7:13-14Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction ,and many enter through it.14. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

When we get weary of the strife we should not forget we are not alone. Others have suffered like us and the world was never made easy for our fore bearers nor will we be carried around on soft pillows. We will not be crowned until we have endured hardship. In many cases multiple hardships. We must run this race to the end, being firm in the faith, being courageous and being strong!

In the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among who you shine as lights in the world.

Gracious Savior dwell with me:

I myself would gracious be,

and with words that help and heal

would thy life in mine reveal

and with actions bold and meek

would for Christ my Savior speak.

Stubborn? Who Me?

Oh, say it can’t be so. Please. I have been told that I have been this many times. Foolishly thinking that it meant a good thing, like being strong. Boy was I wrong! According to the dictionary it is anything but …..a good thing… It actually means to be more like Satan and his cronies! Per the secular dictionary :

stub·born/ˈstəbərn/ Learn to pronounce adjectiveadjective: stubborn

  1. Having or showing dogged determination not to change one’s attitude or position on something, especially despite good arguments or reasons to do so.”a stubborn refusal to learn from experience”synonyms:obstinate, stubborn as a mule, mulish, headstrong, willful, strong-willed, self-willed, pigheaded, bull-headed, obdurate, awkward, difficult, contrary, perverse, recalcitrant, refractory; More firm, adamant, resolute, dogged, persistent, pertinacious, inflexible, iron-willed, uncompromising, uncooperative, unaccommodating, intractable, unbending, unyielding, unmalleable, unadaptable; rock-ribbed; informal stiff-necked; informal bolshie, bloody-minded; informal balky; archaic contumacious, forward “you’re too stubborn to admit it”antonyms:compliant, docile, humble

This definition explains the reason for my divorce from my first husband. The man I loved, thought was my soul mate. Who promised me love and honor. Instead I found his stubbornness. An aloofness. Which eventually became to my mind a form of disinterest in me and our life together, and a form of betrayal to me and our wedding vows.. He did not think of us, as one. He thought of himself, his wants, wishes. His pride encouraging him along the way, his actions spoke saying being right was of sole importance. That is wrongheaded thinking then and now. By the end my spitefulness and stubbornness pushed me to divorce. My pastor talked with me about it but I could not get around the impenetrable walls. Thick walls I had built to protect myself from the pain he made me feel. Before I knew it there was no more feeling for him or our union at all. I was shunned. To say people were displeased would be putting it mildly.

Pride! And sadly this is what God hates. While those not in God’s household are confused and think, as I used to think also, that it’s a good thing! 1Pet.5:6-7 tells why God hates pride. We are to clothe ourselves in humility! Pride wants us to be king, to be exalted. No, we are to lift others and certainly our spouses!

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Which is the worst thing to be? God has decided and one is no better….equally a lost state to live in. An over indulgent urge to exalt ourselves over others.

Pride means:(per the same dictionary)

  1. A feeling or deep pleasure (big headed, conceited,)or satisfaction derived from one’s own achievements, the achievements of qualities or possessions that are widely admired.”he takes great pride in his appearance” · synonyms:pleasure · joy · delight · gratification · fulfillment · satisfaction ·
  2. consciousness of one’s own dignity.”he swallowed his pride and asked for help”synonyms:self-esteem · dignity · honor · self-respect · ego · self-worth · self-image ·
  3. confidence and self-respect as expressed by members of a group, typically one that has been socially marginalized, based on their shared identity, culture, and experience.”the bridge was lit up in rainbow colors, symbolic of LGBT pride” · Self Self Self….sort of explains it, right?
  4. literally the best state or condition of something; the prime.”in the pride of youth”

Do you see why God hates Pride, the Proud, The haughty?

Stubbornness and pride both can be glaringly obvious and wrong or subtle and deceptively sneaky.

It is all about self! To pass for more than we are, to hide our defects. Prov. 16:18 Pride goes before a fall. There is no glory to God, to His Creation, His Plan, His Gifts, His outworking. It is the feeling that man is an equal to God. As in self-esteem. Pride is at the heart of bullying and entitlement.Prov.13:10 ‘Pride only breeds quarrels, but wisdom is found in those who take advice”.

Being proud however of an accomplishment, a deed well done, is not the same. Especially if we have thanked God for it and recognize He made the way possible.

While being proud of another or their accomplishment is not the same as self exalting. That is more uplifting which is what we should be doing. Giving God some praise or glory for those who succeed are a beautiful thing.

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“Come to me , all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest” Mathew 11:28
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It wasn’t until the Lord revealed that I was equally, if not more responsible in that divorce that I felt safe enough to try again in another marriage. That is where I ran into more ego, pride and stubbornness again. My second husband was as bad as the first and worse because now anger and addiction were involved. Scared yet certain that another divorce was not the answer, I prayed. This time I recognized what was going on, I gave it to the Lord to deal with, and to help me change. I would never break the cycle on my own. It was in me my pride and stubbornness and a familiarity with those tendencies was under pinning my poor choices. God heard my pleas and began His transforming of us both. That marriage lasted until death did us part. We became more than husband and wife, we became best friends. A life @ 35 years together with trials weathered. Mountaintop experiences and low swampy valley times that only a mixed family of yours mine and ours might understand. By no stretch was it made easy, it was not. We were having strong arms baring us up, creating pathways and our characters were being forged. We persevered because we loved God more than ourselves and were transformed.

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Jesus was my center first. Then Jesus was center of both our lives. We had to get out of each others way to let God work in us.

I have no idea how a marriage without Christ at its core could ever make it in today’s culture

Marriage a sacred gift inside which families are born and grow. A lovely picture for us of Christ and His Church. God Bless all who enter this blessed union. SS

Art Thou Converted?

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Such was the free Grace of God to me. That though corruption has worked strongly in my soul, yet I can recall very early movings of The Blessed Spirit upon my heart. Often I had early convictions of sin and some persons made it their business to tease me.

Mathew 19:14 Jesus said, Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom belongs to such as these.

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Matthew 7:21-23 Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them. 21 Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? And in thy name have cast out devils? And in thy name done many wonderful works? 23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

From what Jesus said it is possible to stand in this wonderful place and preach or teach His Gospel – And yet still be lost. It is possible to be a great missionary who – confronting devil possessed people – can cast out devils – and yet still be lost. You could run an orphanage, or go on missions, and minister to those in need – and still be lost. You can pastor a mega-church or a mini-church, or lead the worship services, or serve in the choir, and still be lost. The danger of wolves being in sheeps clothing is real. We must and with the guidance of the Holy Spirit now living within us discern the truth. ‘Dear friends, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God because many false prophets have gone out into the world.’ 1John 4:1 Our excellent news is that Our Lord promised not to lose any of His Children, given to Him by The Father. We will not fall out or be plucked out of His hands. We need to be wary at all times. For instance there is a false thought encircling the church by more than a few members that misleads them into thinking that responding to an altar call or answering an invitation saved them. When we meet Jesus on that last day He may ask us how we know we are saved? Any answer starting with well I did this or that, any answer with I starting it is a problem. Our choosing Him is an answer to His call, He died for our sins, if not yours He did mine. I know that my sins put Christ on that cross. If there was not any other person who sinned, “we know we all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God,”” Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we may be saved.”

We accept the gift understanding all of it, even our answering is from God’s call first.. Planned since the beginning of time. ” For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

Baptism does not save. Rather it bears witness to already believing.

I was six when I was Baptized. At Cross Lutheran Church in Milwaukee. I remember it well, I took it to heart. I felt so special to God, but with questions. Why did my God Parents get to speak on my behalf, to answer the Pastors questions and not me? I was right there! I believe in Jesus why didn’t anyone ask me? So I told them anyway, “Yes I do” I spoke out and everyone around me said “shhhh”.

Note that this verse in Galatians clearly the word Believes comes first. Believing not just in Christ, but Believing Christ. Christ as God, What He says, expects and gives. Christ as your personal Savior, Believing you personally are a sinner, Believing you personally need saving! When faith in Christ takes hold Repentance will naturally follow. We will bare witness to Him. We all try at various times to change, give up our bad habits, turn from our sins. At least those sins we already know of. But we fail. Over and again with good intentions, yet we fail.

Several years after my Baptism while reading my Bible and teaching Sunday school when I could, more questions began to haunt me. The Lutheran Church I had been raised in couldn’t answer them for me. My pastor would sit and talk about these with me for long periods of time without being able to answer them with a biblical backup. The question I asked during my Baptism was one of them. Why do they teach that without Baptism you can’t be saved? How can a stand person in know how the child will eventually believe, turn out? How many actual God Parents are Godly and will keep the vow they are making before God? The thief on the cross didn’t get baptized. Baptism is extremely important but thinking it saves any of us is wrong. There is not one instance of infant baptism found in the Bible. Dedications yes for infants and small children but that is not the same thing. It is an apple in an orange grove. Baptism should take place when we are old enough (even a child, old enough who can express their faith) to understand it’s important meaning. It is a sacrament after all, which to me means God takes it seriously. We should heed this as well. When God tells us to believe and be baptized, I don’t read anything wishy-washy or anything maybe suggested about it.. He said Do it. To have faith, even if as small as a mustard seed is a great gift. Somewhere that seed was planted in our heart, then watered, weeded and is now just sprouting. Faith like that of a child is the absolute best kind of faith.

Whole family baptism actually started in the 1700s. Some family members baptized were children, babies, so others spoke for them. That does not make it Biblical, it also won’t save you. It’s putting the horse before that cart. According to George Whitfield a great man of God, Baptizing of infants was first made aware to him during his days preaching in the coal mining towns in and around London while working with the Wesley Bros. Also, King Constantine, quite a believer thought it was a good idea to increase the church numbers this way.

That it may be a convenience for some was stated but again I can’t find it anywhere in the Bible. Remember however, I am no great theological scholar. I let my conscience/Spirit be my guide.

WE as believers need to hear Gods call, understand His word and answer for ourselves. A few other weighty questions were a part of the reason my family and I left that Church and found a strict Bible believing teaching non-denominational church group to join. This is not to say that Lutherans or other mainline denominations are not wonderful, believers. They certainly led me to the point of faith, wonder and choice. Being Lutheran did not lose me. God knows His from before their birth. Even though they do not preach on being born again which created a conundrum for me when I was born again. Mainly I didn’t know exactly what was happening to me but I loved whatever it was. Ecstasy, joy I certainly couldn’t shushhh up anymore. I realized what was happening to me from the Bible itself and a Presbyterian Pastor and a Baptist both speaking on the Christian radio. I asked questions of anyone who might know about Jesus and never stopped. Exactly as Jesus teaches He will find us and call us out from anywhere and everywhere. I was actually on a Jesuit retreat when I heard the call of all places. Being silent, listening and responding to Gods teachings. How diverse is that. I can say easily no religion saved me. Purely Jesus.

The New Birth is required. Jn3:3, “Truly truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the Kingdom of God. “ We need a new heart, or we end up believing like Satan and his followers. They all know Jesus exists, they know all about Him and the Bible. But they do not submit to Jesus nor to the Bible. They certainly don’t follow it, quite to the contrary. The carnal world finds the things of God foolish. Their eyes are blinded to spiritual things nor can they hear them, the unbeliever is dead spiritually speaking. Only God can awaken the Spirit through Faith, by His Grace.

Jn 10:27 “My Sheep hear my voice and I know them and they follow me.”Jn10:15 “..even as the Father knows me and I know The Father, and I lay down My life for the sheep.”

Gifts are given to us all for many occasions but do not belong to the recipient until they were received and opened.

We follow Him by His Word, by His example, especially upon conversion. I have yet to meet another convert who does not know when they were converted. Undergoing a heart transplant is hard to miss. The transformation begins and grows in us until the Lord sends for us to be with Him forever. Making us more like Him. Just as in most families there is a resemblance, a trait or characteristic that automatically links you to your parents and family. The same is true of our Father, making us more like Him that there should come a time when all who know us will know of our Christian heritage. Even though we are adopted our mannerisms, habits desires will become more like our new family in Christ. If it doesn’t something is wrong. Have people noticed a change in you? For example, several years after my conversion my husband and I were having a conversation. One of those chats most couples wish they didn’t need. A comment he made to me at that time struck me in the heart. He had been relaying some of my faults that he was unhappy with, as I had been also. When he said that he missed the woman he married. That I was not her, and that I had changed a lot! I rejoiced, he thought I had slipped a gear or two. He had not yet been converted and was still looking through the fogged up lens with eyes adorned by scales. His ears were still closed to spiritual things. We spoke well into the evening and at a point I offered him the opportunity to leave our marriage. I showed him in the Bible where it gives an unbeliever that option. I also pointed out that as long as he stayed he was benefiting from sanctification. That was the evening of his spiritual ground being furrowed (again) and the seed being planted. He opted to stay. We spent just short of 35 years together. My change took place in the third year of our marriage. He went home to be with the Lord a believer!

There are times of failing for all believers, we will slip and even fall for a while. We are indeed a work in progress, but we won’t be comfortable being away from our Father and church family for any significant amount of time. We will come back in deep repentance and faith, calling Abba Father. Sooner than later. A beautiful work progressing. Bearing witness to Christ because we can’t not.

Hey Its Just Me!

About me it asks? Yikes…… Well here goes…..I am a passionate and spirited mature woman of faith. Faith in God, My Lord and Savior always comes first in my life. Also, I am a mom, of four. I was a wife 3 times, 2 times widowed. That was rough! Rougher in every way more than I ever thought it would be.! I had no understanding of what the loss of a spouse entails. I was caretaker to each of them until they passed from their medical error catastrophes.. So after the last one passed I decided enough. Not that a companion wouldn’t be nice since always being a fifth wheel is not. But I am done with the idea of any long term relationship . I could not experience that kind of loss again.

I believe God has a purpose for this single oneness He has me in today. So, I will wait as He slowly reveals His plan for me to come. That is just fine with me. I know those plans are going to be interesting and challenging at the very least. I also know good will come from it.

I am also a braggadocious Grand mom, Stepmom, Aunt, Sister, Cousin, and Friend of many. A woman who has much to say about a great deal. An Opinionated INTJ personality. I was born this way so what I can do is try to use the golden rule as often as I can. You don’t know about INTJ’s? That’s easily remedied, google it. There aren’t many of us which I heard from some is a good thing. Ha, it’s all about perception. We are frustrating to be around I am told. Mainly because we are right. About almost anything and unrelenting. Just ask us. It is by MBTI standards the personality called the Mastermind.  So by popular demand, (actually a few friends and family suggested that I write down a few of my experiences, notions, opinions. Certainly not so I wouldn’t drive them all crazy with my thoughts and comments)? Right?

‘Oh For crying out loud’ was born. Born once in 2015 and then, Born again. More Recently. Now it is ‘Oh For Crying Out Loud & it’s Echoes’. I know it’s a long name, but I have trouble with being short. We all have our faults, I am A work in progress.

As the Good Lord has seen to bless my life with many diverse and rare maladies along with a humongous family, really large and in its fullness of unique and rare nutty complex diagnoses. It seemed fitting to share the oft time mountainous climb many of us experienced through our trips and travails of medical errors and not. We learn by sharing, not only things but experiences, knowledge and in doing we help others. We give up privacy and risk ridicule and humiliation, but how else would you know what helps, works, or doesn’t

Well enough about all that……for now. Blessings and hugs to you and I pray you are helped by my little blog, insights, theories, stories and thoughts. Which more will follow soon. The Lord willing.

  Until later……SS . View more posts